How have I positively changed my practice during my postgraduate journey?

My reflections are organised and presented via the Gibbs’ Model of Reflection around Personalised Learning (Theme 1)

“Ahakoa he iti, he pounamu - however small the steps may be, consider it precious/a valuable learning experience”

What happened?
I started this Mindlab journey more to support my rumaki reo kaiako colleagues.  We had aspirations of becoming great technical users of a range of digital tools and resources to integrate into our classrooms with our akonga.  We thought we would be able to do great things!!  Reality set in - that this was not actually going to be a simple ‘fill my glass’ course and that I would be tested beyond what I thought I was capable of doing.  It is probably fair to say, that I have experienced great lows in doubting my abilities to persevere and continue with the course (even now) and I have experienced some joy that has shone light at the end of my tunnel - and this is what my reflective log will now chart.
What was I thinking & feeling?
Initially, I put up barriers, excuses and obstacles to justify my thoughts and actions with bouts of negative self-talk and episodic rants and raves - this course is way too hard for me...and I am not cut out to do this....I need to finish...it’s driving me insane!!
I thought that there was no relevance to any of the work I do - particularly in rumaki reo settings.  This stuff is not focussed on anything I do on a daily basis.
As I attended the face to face workshops , I became increasingly despondent, unmotivated as much of what we were covering and tinkering with did not make sense or did not connect with my own worldview. At times, it still doesn’t.  I’m picturing myself as an ‘underachieving learner’ in a classroom.  So I had almost hit rock bottom....I couldn’t go any lower, so I needed to lift myself up and dig deep and apply the words of the whakatauki “ahakoa he iti, he pounamu’ however small your steps, they’re precious/become a valuable experience to move me forward.  So a growth mindset was needed.  I had always thought of myself as Rogers described in his innovative adoption curve an innovator and early adopter, but reality check - I had located myself in the laggard end of the curve.
I had situated my thoughts and practice in this space, so I needed to rethink, reframe and take a more critical lens approach on how I could use tools and resources I had been exposed to in this course to enhance and promote akonga learning and teaching.  The personalised learning theme really seemed to shed light on ways of knowing, being and doing. So here’s what I started to do.
What was good and bad about the experience?